May 27th, 2005

Vivaldi, Queen of Hearts

Sorry to fill up your lists with a day full of complaints....

My aunt got the results back about how far the cancer has spread in her body. The news is...not grand. They've spotted something on her liver. They're not sure if it's a met, but chances are...

So, they're booking a CT within the next 2 weeks...Then 2 weeks after that, another dr's appt..then 2 weeks after that, a liver biopsy.

It's just so frustrating. It'll have been 3 months since they found out she has cancer by the end of all that crap. They need to move faster, before it spreads any further, and start treating her! I think my mom and sister are going to try to convince her to move down here for a bit and get treated, so they can pull some strings and make some calls and get her in for appointments and tests sooner.

Liver cancer is supposed to be one of those..if you've got it, you're done kinds of cancer.

I just want good news..It's getting harder and harder to be optimistic about everything. I'm worried that I'm switching from optimistic to denial, or trying to distance myself from the fact...