May 12th, 2005

Vivaldi, Queen of Hearts

Fuck Cancer.

With cancer, you usually get your good news and your bad news. Ups and Downs.

..Not in my Aunt's case. We haven't had one hopeful bit of news since we first heard she had cancer.

9 out of 12 lymph nodes were cancerous. And it's apparently one of the very aggressive cancers. In 2 weeks we get the results of how far it's spread (like bone, brain, liver..)..

I just don't know what to do. I'm so scared, and upset, and worried about everyone. People keep telling me to be optimistic but I'm finding it very hard to do...I have no hopeful news to go on.

I'm sick of no good news. Sick of it!

My mom and I are thinking of renting a cottage for weekend, or a week, or something in the summer, just kind of get the family together, or at least the girls or something. Make some good last memories and all...

Fuck! I need to try to be more positive. I mean, good news has to come along at some point, right?
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