January 29th, 2005

Vivaldi, Queen of Hearts

Stupid Peterborough..

Well that was horrible...

I'm really introverted and don't like going out to bars much. But when Mike wanted me to go out with a bunch of his friends from work, he really seemed to want me to go, so I said yes. But then after we get out, I end up being left off by myself while he's talking with everyone. And I had no one to talk to, and I felt like an idiot standing off to the side all by myself with no one to talk to and nothing to do.

So I left, went for a walk, came back..Wasn't any better so I left again and went to the Subway where my friend Ian works and sat there for a good hour and a half drinking nasty ass hot chocolate (Never get hot chocolate from Subway). Anyway, Mike came in about an hour and a half, two hours after I intially went in there. But I wasn't happy, so I left, and took a cab home. Halfway there I realize I don't have my house keys and have to turn around and go back downtown.

Thank glorious cab driver didn't charge me a thing (Probably because I was upset and crying and poured my whole miserable night out to him. Plus he was like Grandpa=aged.), but then I had to wait in a line, pay the damn cover for the bar, just to go in and get Mike's house key from him.

Now I'm sitting at home, alone and miserable once again. I think I'm just going to go cry myself to sleep.

I hate people. I hate social situations. Even when I try, they never work out for me. I'll never fit in no matter what I do.+
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